deep down in my heart

I'm just trying to get a grip of my life, you're right, i'm old enough to take care of my life, so that's totally what i am doing. All of my action right now it's so that i achieve it. It's so that the burden that you feel would be lift off, no need to spend more on me, i totally understand.
Yeah, i would say that i'm kind of hurt by it, but i put the feeling aside, cause i need to understand from your point of view, i know that you are working very hard to fulfill everyone's need, so, since i'm grown enough to take care of my own life, then i should.
What i am doing right now is NOT to show that i am being rebellious, no, NOT AT ALL. I'm doing this cause i need , I HAVE to live on what i can actually afford.
I hope u understand , i know that you'll never ever read this, but i just need to get it out of my head. You know that never in my life that i would hurt your feelings, however i need you to understand the reasons for my actions. I know you are thinking the other way around.

tired out

Waaaa.... i am freaking tired~!

Worried

Honestly, i am soo freaking worried for all my students right now, they have just done their test, and well, since i'm worried, you guys could guess the result of the test ,right....,??!
i really want them to do well in all of their subjects (not only mine), being a teacher/lecturer, sometimes (most of time) it's very obvious who was paying attention in class and who was not... and the test result proved me right.
higher education is not like high school, it's very different, basically, in high school, students were spoon fed, but not in higher education, students have to know how to learn on their own, beside being guided by the lecturer.
In my experience as a student, you have to pay attention in class, if u don't and with the thinking of "i can study later/study when the exam is near" u are sooo wrong, imagine, exam is around the corner, and u are struggling to do a "force memorization" of EVERY subject, it's really not a good idea u know, it's critically important that u UNDERSTAND the subject in question, cause, one thing is that the exam question WILL NOT be a photocopy of the examples / questions that u have done in class (the one that u have tried sooo hard to MEMORIZE).
I really wish this test result will be a wake up call for those who didn't do so well (eventhough it's kindda a cruel wake up call and some students might fell demotivated(DON'T!!) cause it actully should push you to work harder to get better result), and a motivation for those who did comparatively well (Please do not be overconfident, it can kill you).
I wish the best for all of my students....

FRIEND SUGGESTIONS ...????~~??!?!?!?!

for those who have FB, have you ever notice the friend suggestion thingy that's on ur upper right side on ur home page?? you did?? so u know what i'll be talking about

ok..... so i was just browsing my fb home page , and then at the corner of my eye i saw the suggested friend thingy... guess whose picture popped up??????? THAT F*CKER that hit me and my bumblebee, i almost went into a heart attack, warghhhhhhh~!!!
so i click on it, just wanna make sure that he have no mutual friends with me
AND THANK GOD HE DIDN'T HAVE ANY~!

HUH~!

sick~!

**sniff sniff** i got fever(39.9C), Flu and uhuk uhuk cough~! waaa...... my body aches alott.. my head feels like it's gonna burst open :(
on the bright side my "buubuu" has arrived in kl safetly and now he's safely with me and he is just sooo perfect~!

to bumblebee: sorry dearest, i know parting is very difficult, but i am so sorry, life has to move on love you lotsss