Guudbye 2008, Welcome 2009

2008

personally, i would think that for the year 2008, generally my life's getting better and better. i had my ups and downs as anyone would have experienced in their life and i believe that i had taught me to become a better person.
Career wise, if i am not mistaken, i have changed job once this year, from a customer service contact center exect. to a lecturer. I think that that kindda kewl right? i never thought that i would become a lecturer. even now, when people ask me, what i work as, i still get the "shock" facial expression. hehehe honestly, it rocks to see them that way. Who would have knew that someone like me could become a lecturer. Well... people might see me as a party girl, the-all-play-and-no-work-kindda-girl,however, i really take my career seriously . i think i have mentioned in previous entries that a lecturer's job is not easy...it really is not easy k guys.
for the family category, well... i can't say much about it. what i could say is that i think it have been a roller coaster, after a few years of not going back to my father's hometown for raya, amazingly, i did went back this year... it was not easy for me..
A few of my friends got married this year.. good for them. hope they will have a happy family and pray for me that i'll get a great guy to build up my own family k .. hehehe
to sum up for the year 2008, it had been full with unexpectedness, surprise, laughter, basically, everything. it was a great year .. and hope it gets better

2009

Hope that i would be able to take my master's degree
Hope that my lovelife would get better
Hope that i could buy a Caldina (well... we can dream can we? )
Hope that i could teach myself on how to save money ( it is soooo hard to do so)
Hope that i would maintain my current job and in this line of work ( it's really cooolll)
Hope for the best for my family & friends - murahkan rezeki, panjangkan umur, dan segala yang baik

and the list will be continue....

Panic Attack....?

Information on Panic Attack

Panic attacks are frightening but fortunately physically harmless episodes. They can occur at random or after a person is exposed to various events that may "trigger" a panic attack. They peak in intensity very rapidly and go away with or without medical help.

People experiencing panic attacks may fear they are dying, that they are suffocating, or that they are having a heart attack.

Some people may begin breathing very rapidly and complain that their "hearts are jumping around in their chest." Then, within about an hour, the symptoms fade away. About 5% of the population will experience panic attacks during their lifetimes.

Panic Attacks Symptomspanic attack as a discrete period of intense fear or discomfort, in which 4 (or more) of the following symptoms develop abruptly and reach a peak within 10 minutes:

• • Palpitations, pounding heart, or fast heart rate
    
    
  • Sweating
    
    
  • Trembling and shaking
    
    
  • Sensations of shortness of breath or smothering
    
    
  • Feelings of choking
    
    
  • Chest pain or discomfort
    
    
  • Nausea or abdominal distress
    
    
  • Feeling dizzy, unsteady, lightheaded, or faint
    
    
  • Derealization (feelings of unreality) or depersonalization (being detached from oneself)
    
    
  • Fear of losing control or going crazy
    
    
  • Fear of dying
    
    
  • Paresthesias (numbness or tingling sensations)
    
    
  • Chills or hot flashes

• Some of these symptoms will most likely be present in a panic attack. The attacks can be so disabling that the person is unable to express to others what is happening to them. A doctor might also note various signs of panic: The person may appear terrified or shaky or be hyperventilating (deep, rapid breathing causing dizziness).

you guys may wonder why on earth do i blog about panic attack. The reason is that i experince a panic attack on Thursday 18/12/2008.
Seriusly it was scary .. really2 scary...

FARKING PISSSED~!!!

I FARKING PISSSSSSED OFF WHEN PPL LIE
FARK OFF AND DIE MUTHAFARKER, BULLSHIT~!
DAMMMMIT
EVENTHOUGH I KNOW THAT 99.9% THAT YOU'RE LYING,
STILL IT FARKING SICK WHEN IT IS TRUE

SO SAD.... :((

i am sooo Farking sad cause i lost my n73..
i loved it sooo much and how i lost it macam tak
masuk akal betul.. sedih sangat :(
kesian my SE dah takde kawan dah...
so camane? takkan nak cari replacement kot..
i dunno if it's misplaced ke .. lost ke.. stolen ke.. i just don't know...
waaaaaaa

Taman Tasik Permaisuri

Well, recently, i went to taman tasik permaisuri for a "date"(classic right?) .

Honestly speaking it was my 1st time EVER going on a date in a park, ( sounds sad ain't it?)



The view, the atmosphere was just beautiful. It was just great, admiring the view, everything was just great.

the weather that day was just nice for a stroll in the park


now a days susah nak tengok bende2 camni. iyela dengan pencemaran2 and everything else. we should really take care of the earth, it the only one that we have.

actually motif aku post blog nih nak tunjukkan gambar tempat tu. Kalau korang nak gie dating, boleh la gie kat tempat nih.
Kalau gf tengah marah2 pon leh tenang hati dorang. :P

The 8 Most Horrifying Body Modification

Viewer's Discretion is Advised

I stumbled across a quite interesting site. The 8 Most Horrifying Body Modifications.





At number 8 : Tatoo Breast Implant

Yang nih .. normal la tak ada la gruesome sangat... bebiasa je... still can handle it





Number 7 : Corset Piercing

Apa la motif diorang nak gie buat corset piercing, kalau nak pun, pakai je la corset udahle .. tak yah la sampai nak pierce sampai ke camgini... sakit tu...Silalah imagine, kalaulah tetiba kesemua yang dipiercing tu tercarik...wuuhuu sakitt tu..





Number 6 : Skull Implant

yang nih satu aku tak paham.. apa motifnye nak pasang paku kat atas kepala... nak jadi ganas sgt ker? takdok keje agaknye.






number 5: Arm Ears


Mamat nih pulak, dia gie implant telinga kat tangan dia. die nih performance artist. Lepas nih dia plan nak implant microphone lak, jadi dia leh bagi org lain dengar apa yang "telinga tangan" dia dengar. Korang nak dengar ke? ?




Number 4 : Subdermal Implants


Okeh.. yang ni pulak, kiranya korang letak implant dalam bentuk yang korang suka dibawah kulit korang. Dorang akan buat something cam pocket antara kulit korang and daging korang and letak ar bende alah tu,
Kalau korang ar.. nak letak implant apa?


Number 3 : Extraocular Implant

huhu.. yang nih kiranya korang letak something bebetul kat mata korang. yang nih leh dapat kat Netherlands je for now.


Number 2 : Magnetic Implant



Nih takde pepe sangat, cuma korang implant magnet so korang leh lekat bende2 kat badan korang. Leh jadi pintu peti ais kan...




AND
THE NUMBER 1 :
GENITAL BEADING

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Wahaha.. nih lucah skit ar..sorry ehh...
basically diorang buat something like number 4 only at a different part of the body.. hehe


combining beads with private part.... ouch..

instead of a cucumber .... imagine something else... huhuhuhu... sakitnye...?

Trust...?

Well, recently , after what had happen to my love life, it has tought me to take your own sweet time in getting to know someone, especially, new guy friends. I understand that everyone have their own experience when it comes to love life. either you have been hurt before or you have hurt someone before.

For those i might have hurt before, i would want to say that i am sorry for everything. i didn't mean it. Maybe we just not meant for each other. I know you might say, it's easy for me to say that, the person who felt it may had their heart and feeling broken into pieces. i have my own reasons. somethimes i confess it was not their fault, it was my own fault. and sometimes, it's their own fault as well.

Due to this. i now need time to trust the other gender. Especially if that guy is interested in being more that friends. I believe if that guy is honest and sincere in having a relationship with me. he would not be pressuring me to do anything, (i.e :pushing me trusting him). Give me my time and space to know and learn more about him. Only with time that we could build the trust between two person. that is what i believe.

If that guy is really interested he would not mind waiting for the girl that he like. He would also need to take his own time to learn more and to build his trust. You can't just give you trust to anyone. If you ignore this, someday(hopefully that day never comes) you might get hurt badly.

So i now have a new principal for myself which is

"don't ever trust anyone else but yourself.... until they proof they are worth you trust"

If i were a boy - i love this song

I believe most of us have heards beyonce's new song - " if a were a boy" i really2 love this song.
It is full with meanings. Guys you should listen and understand the meaning of this songs. it's really good. :)

Beryonce - If i were a boy



If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)


[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

When We Were Young The gig

On Saturday 23/11/08, i've went to the when we were young the gig at cafe VR-1. The place was not bad, i was informed from the organizer "Todak Crew" that they were not expecting a big crowd as this is their first comeback gig after 5 years laying low.
However, the placed was packed with peeps. the gig got quite a good response.


The show started at 9.30pm by the 1st performer which was John's Mistress. One of the songs that they played that i liked besides their own song was a cover song, Haruka Kanata - Asian Kung Fu Generation, which was performed with excellence.





The next performer was Siren, and it was their 1st performance. they open their performance with a cover song and followed by one of their songs which was titled "Cermin". I liked this song.
It was quite good for a band for their 1st performance. I hope that they would do their best in this arena and help bring up malaysia's music industry.




The last performance was by Robot Asmara, well, this band already has a solid fan base, and i can see why. They were great. their music was refreshing, unique and well great. They perfomed cover songs and as well their own songs. One of it was "Hati besi" the song that brought up the name of "robot asmara" in the arena.


Overall, it was a great nite and i believe that all that had attended the event had a great time.
Thanks to all that had attended the event and we'll see you next time~! :)

The Curve - 16/11/2008

Last Sunday i went to the curve just to hang out with a few friends. well, obviously, we went for the flee market. it was so-so the things sold there were ok. However, i like one of the shops there, i bought a blouse for RM3o and i think is sooo worth it. i think if it was like in normal shops would be around Rm40 - RM 60 more or less.


Then we went for lunch at VIVO ... that place is yummy~!!! The baked chic & mush pasta was nice. I have planned the next time i'm there i am soooo gonna eat the Bed of mushroom pizza. it's making me drooling just thinking about it.. hehehe.



Then we went around and around and around some more, and we drop by the cupcake chic shop. Well , my opinion on this one, it's okey. not bad. bad not tooo great either. i think it just toooo omg sweet but, it's sooo soft and spongylike. hehe It's okey if eaten once in a while.

Wishing and Hoping?

Everyone will have their own wish and hopes, and i'm not left out.
Recently, i've felt it again, and again and again. hoping and hoping. Wanting and wishing for it . I know, i should just leave it alone. it will come when the time is right. But how can i just sit here and wait? however, i'm too shy t do anything about it. I'm not that kindda girl, i'm maybe open minded and all , but, i am still old fashion in a few matters. Well, whomever that read this, maybe understand or don't understand what the hell i am talking about. it's okey, just go with the flow k guys .

love ya muahxx

Mind your manners ~!!!

People should always mind their manner anytime and anywhere, either when they meet them by the roadside or in your office or even on the phone.

You should always treat other people with respect the way that you would want other people to treat you. If you start bashing people on the phone, you're being rude and start to piss other people.

Even how high your position is in an organization, if you're rude, no one, NO ONE will like you. That's why, people should always have proper manner when communicating with other people even if they are much more younger or in a lower position than you, even more so, if you are communicating with someone who's a lot older than you are.

anyway, something happen today, aku dapat tau yang someone called up my home today and was looking for me.

My brother said it was from something i applied for, most probably from one of the local universities that i was applying for.

What the hell la, kalau ko dah call rumah orang, jaga la tatasusila skit. ni tak , ko nak marah2 kat org apahal, tak pasal2 my dearest grandmom dah terasa hati, sedih. iskkkkk
bongok la org tu. kalau dapat la ngan aku.. memang nak kene. bongokkk.

" When we were young ... The Gig "

Todakcrew Records & Stereopath proudly presents!

'When We Were Young...The Gig'

-An approximately 3 hours of non stop energatic music from 4 great bands of different era. Presenting:

1) Robot Asmara
2) Siren (1st apperance)
3) John's Mistress

It's a tribute to the 70's, 80's & 90's music scene where Disco, Funk, Rock, Alternatives & etc rules the music industry. If you guys have already forgotten how is it like to be in the past, you guys should come to the gig where we never forget the day 'When We Were Young'.

- Date: 22th Nov 2008 (Saturday)

- Time: Start at 9.00pm till 11.30pm!

- Location: Cafe VR1 , Prudential Building, Damansara Intan.

- Admission: FREE!
Come all come and join us in for the love of music~!

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For any inquiries , Do send your e-mail to:

todakcrew@yahoo.com (ARUL)

@>~~~ FOR THE LOVE OF MUSIC ~~~

nothing in this world is easy...

huhu, seriusly, ingat senang ke nak jadi tenaga pengajar nih?

dengar macam senang ar, tapi hakikatnye... huhuhu, boleh tahan jugak la kene sabar dia tu.

well, mmg la bagus kalau tak faham something2 tu better if you ask your lecturer, howeverrrr, jangan la sampai every single minor thing pun nak kene tanya, if sampai 3-4 kali tanya the same thing for 1 tutorial... camane nak cakap tu..

mmg la tak faham, dah takde basic in the subject macam dari art's stream masuk science stream mmg la mcm tak faham sgt,takleh nak salahkan anyone, tapi kene la take self initiative,if you know that you don't understand, try looking on the net, library, or if you don't have the basics, you need to brush it up yourself, you getting a tertiary education, you have to know how to handle it. no one ever says that tertiary education is easy. it's nothing like high school . you have to take care of yourself. no one will take care of it for you.

And jangan la sampai every question for example tutorial that was given to you, that you feel the need to check every single one of it if it's correct. That's not the way, you can ask for tips or explanations, but, you as well need to be confident in yourself.

"Be confident with yourself, people will judge you by how you carry yourself"

My first blog

Hi there, well, this would be my offically 1st blog here, just basically i would use this platform to express my opinion on a matter about everything and anything.

Just as a start,
i received a very sad news today, it was about my lecturer when i was studying in UMT, he was my final year project supervisor and as well a very respected person. Dr Senin B hassan , Head of department for Physics had passed away on saturday(8/11/08) evening.

the last time i contacted him was like around 2 months ago when i asked him for a referee letter for my teaching permit. it seems like just yesterday that i talked to him about this.

i know that his family, friends , students and all who knew him would miss him dearly and that he would be always remembered by all.